Birthdays. Everyone dreads their birthday. Especially getting older. You suddenly go through this stage of self depression where you just want to stay young, look hip & reflect back on where you are in life. I’ll admit, I’m TERRIBLE with birthdays. Typically a week or a bit before I go into meltdown mode. Wondering what I’m doing in life, where I’m going & if I’m starting to loose grip on my appearance. This year was slightly different. Well, okay; that was a slight lie. I slept horribly & dreaded the fact that I couldn’t be with my family for the first time ever on my actually birthday. However, that’s just one part of growing up. I will say, For the first time in a long time I’m incredibly happy with where I am. I’m living on my own in an amazing city full of potential. I have my two dogs who are both extremely happy & healthy. Keeping me active & on my toes. I’m within short walking distance of the beach, quick drive to the mountains & can pretty much go and do anything I want whenever I want. I’ve focused more on my lifestyle & with that I’ve now hit the lowest in my weight I’ve been for as long as I can remember. Easily back to my teenager years. I’ve met a really incredible guy who is the biggest sweetheart & I can just be myself with. It’s so rare to be able to just sit back with someone and hang out. No pressure or tension just genuinely enjoying yourselves. I had no idea guys like him even existed. I’m about to embark on a career path I’ve wanted for a very long time. I am happy, my soul is fulfilled & feels rich with happiness. I feel like 6 months ago I could never predict what true happiness feels like. In all aspects of my life I’m in a great place. I wanted to post about it so even on my future crummy days I can look back at this moment in time & realize what happiness truly looks like. I guess birthdays aren’t so bad. Aging isn’t awesome but let’s be honest, I’ve suffered with Peter Pan syndrome since I was in my late teens. (I’ve been 23 long before I ever actually turned 23 & well past since I’ve turned 23. Haha.) I think it’s fair to say I’m never ever growing up.
So I guess this is cheers to 28! Finally a birthday I can enjoy. I love who I am & whom I’m becoming. Hopefully this is the beginning of many more fantastic birthdays where I’m even more fulfilled & happy with where I am in life.
– Aging (physically) Crooks.